Refrain:
I thought i could hide enough to make you think i was strong
But to unmask me didn't really take that long
Among all these lies
You just took a look into my eyes
I played the game of lies that you already won
Because you saw i'm ok was the biggest one
Since i don't know how you perceive that i can't get rid of these fears
I don't want to strain you anymore so i'm just holding back my tears
Verse 1:
I was thinking that you're the one to be in need
But you saw my strength has already fleed
Cause beside of books my mind is something you can read
I was sure that i can read yours but in deed
Mine said to you that i was the one to plead
You saw that i already bleed
And not just only one bead
I just couldn't hide that to much of it was freed
Verse 2:
I thought my jokes distract you to make you feel good
Or at least a little better
I hoped so much they would because they really should
But to you that didn't matter
Here and there a laugh was all they brought
Since there was another thing you caught
You heard that my heart made no sound
Because i already laid on the ground
Verse 3:
You asked yourself why i'm so over the top
The idea of showing a grinning face was a flop
But at this point it was to late to swap
I wanted you to laugh cause i saw your teardrop
Still you saw that i was even worse
Cause i felt like i was under a curse
And i'm not sure if i need a mental nurse
Or directly a hearse
Beschreibung des Autors zu "Holding Back My Tears"
In diesem Lied beschreibt er, wie er versucht sie von all ihren Problemen abzulenken, wobei er erst viel zu spät bemerkt, dass sie schon längst erkannt hat, dass es ihm noch schlechter geht.
Gevatter Tod, -unsichtbarer Geselle,
verbreitest bisweilen Angst und Schrecken,
stehst von Anbeginn schon vor der Tür,
gehst neben mir, trittst an des Lebens Stelle.
Gefühlsduseleien
Ein Tag brachte Enttäuschungen.
Gescheiterte Versuche,
warfen kalten Schnee auf die Gedanken.
Träume sprangen aus den Wolken,
sie brachen sich beinahe das Genick,
doch sie [ ... ]